WTF Am I Doing? Oh Right… Growing.

That OMG - WTF before you take action?

Maybe it shows up as doubt.
Or fear. Even sheer, sh*t-your-pants terror.

It’s your spirit gleefully throwing it hands up in the air as the bar of the roller coaster is coming down, but your brain is screaming how the hell did I let you talk me into this!?

You’ve noticed it.

Those heart palpitations right before you do the thing your soul knows is right for you:
Send that reply text.
Speak the boundary.
Tell the truth that’s been boiling over and you’ve been muttering under your breath for weeks…

Suddenly, your chest tightens.
Your stomach churns.
You hesitate — and not because it’s wrong… but because it’s real.

WTF I am thinking!?

Well, guess what?
That’s your nervous system going:
“Uhh… are we sure about this? Because… this feels different.”

And yeah — it is different.
Different like healing.
Different like freedom.
Different like finally choosing yourself without apologizing for it.

See — the soul doesn’t wait for your logic to get on board.
It moves first.
It whispers yes.
Or maybe screams yes!
Then your body throws a tantrum because growth, oh snap, this feels like danger.

But it’s not.
Well, only to the old version of you who’s fighting for its smallness.

It’s the internal scaffolding shifting -
making room for the new you to take up space.

So, don’t overthink the tension.
Don’t wait to feel “ready.”

You’re not broken, or behind.
You’re just becoming someone who is living more authentically faster than your fear can talk you out of it.

Acknowledge it.
Take a breath.
Then take the step.
Better yet - take the flying leap.

Messy is fine.
Trembling is holy.
Forward is enough.